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Who counsels the counselor?

I'm trying not to make posts like this, so I'll LJ cut it for those who are sick of me bitching about work.

I did the unthinkable. I cried in staff meeting.

I've gone through so many emotions over our scheduling process, from frustration, through anger, now into despair. I just can't see how people who do empathic reflection for a living can be so mean to each other. From the very first staff meeting, you learn that the only way to get what you want is to fight for it. I've learned to dread Fridays.

I don't want to do it anymore. I caved, let them all have whatever they wanted. I even let them give me twenty-four hours one week. Of course, after the meeting, two of my coworkers offered to give me hours. It's pathetic that one of us has to cry to make us act humanely toward each other.

I refuse to be a part of the problem anymore. I hate it here because of what I've become, a self-serving lazy grouch among a herd of self-serving lazy grouches. I used to love it here, helping the crisis center become better than it was. I will learn to love it here again, if only for my own well-being.


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Feb. 7th, 2003 09:12 am (UTC)
Feb. 7th, 2003 09:48 am (UTC)
That is a new, all-time low. I understand your pain. I have been there in frustration. I have long since given up on ever understanding how people who work in human services at times cannot relate well to people. At the very least, you should be able to expect a little empathy and a little support. Sadly, you are able to expect...but for the most part no one there delivers. I'm sorry, honey. I'll counsel the counselor if ever you need it. Love,
Feb. 7th, 2003 02:04 pm (UTC)
It's pathetic that one of us has to cry to make us act humanely toward each other.

That's ridiculous. I'm sorry.
Feb. 7th, 2003 03:48 pm (UTC)
Oh, Sweetie...I know how you feel. Tears of anger and frustration. Just know I love you, and am here for you should you need to talk.


Feb. 7th, 2003 05:13 pm (UTC)
hugs hugs hugs. I'm so sorry, sweetie.
Feb. 7th, 2003 08:00 pm (UTC)
random... sorry
I remember now what I wanted to ask you last night, as we were leaving the DB.

Now if only I'll remember the next time I actually talk to you.
Feb. 7th, 2003 11:48 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry for that baby! I love you so much and I wish hella best for you.

What's the word on a grad ticket for me?
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