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Dec. 25th, 2003

I love Mt Pleasant every day except Christmas Day. I'm working, and the $183.68 I'm earning on this shift isn't cheering me up. I'd pay twice that to be in Vicksburg with my extended family. I spent two days at home, at least, before this little work emergency cropped up.

I'll get over it eventually, but right now I'm moodier than a rapidly-cycling bipolar, menopausal woman wearing a thong and a corset.

One thing that has helped to cheer me up was the perfectly timed arrival of the swedishfrogs christmas card yesterday (I've changed apartments, and the post office is very slow at the whole forwarding thing). Thank you so much, dahling, I needed the boost.

Having to be here allowed me to go to Carol's annual Christmas Eve bash. Fun times, and my Flirtini recipe was a hit. I still want to try adding crushed pineapple. Maybe for the SATC premiere . . .

I'm trying not to be vengeful, but I couldn't resist being 17 minutes late this morning (I was shooting for 20 but caved in the final moments). I keep trying to tell myself that this is the last shit job I'm ever going to have, but it's hard not to be angry when I was forced to play Who's the Most Self-Centered? with my co-workers over this(the favorite game of worthless coworkers everywhere). Marie tried to say something nice this morning, I responded with the empathic grunt I save for callers that are truly pissing me off. I think she got the hint. Basically, I'm here, it happened, I'm trying to be very buddhist about the whole experience, but I don't want empty words from people who have repeatedly proven that they will do whatever they have to to get exactly what they want 100% of the time. I refuse to let them feel comfortable about their decision, either.

Well, I'm going back to bed. I'll try to sleep some of this attitude off.

UPDATE (211p):I'm in a better mood again. A little sleep, plus Carol, Karlee, and Chelsee stopped by to bring me treats, so I'm much sweeter. I brought some old QAF tapes; I think I'll throw one in.


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Dec. 25th, 2003 11:25 am (UTC)
December 25,2003

Merry Christmas Stewart!

Hope you cheer up soon!!!!!

QAF always cheers us up!!
Dec. 25th, 2003 01:43 pm (UTC)
Mail always lifts my mood considerably, and I'm glad to hear my card did the same for you, doll.

Have a great Christmas, sweets! xoxoxo
Dec. 25th, 2003 07:35 pm (UTC)
but right now I'm moodier than a rapidly-cycling bipolar, menopausal woman wearing a thong and a corset.

On behalf of rapid-cycling bipolar women wearing thongs and corsets, I console you.

I can't be menopausal, I have amenhorrea.
Dec. 25th, 2003 07:52 pm (UTC)
Why have your periods stopped? Are you taking care of yourself? You made me promise once to not engage in self-harming eating habits, are you? I know that amenorrhea can be caused by things other than anorexia, but that's always the first thing that comes to mind.

Know that I love you no matter what. I'd threaten to come whip you with a sour gummy worm, but we'd both like that too much. Maybe I'll threaten to not come whip you with a sour gummy worm, what do you think about that?
Dec. 25th, 2003 08:13 pm (UTC)
I've had it for ages! ... Ten years?

It's vaguely a progesterone deficiency, hypothalamic in nature... has to do with cyclical hormones being released from them brain... no worries. It's one of the many strange things that seem to coincide with BPII. I don't know if I'm fertile (better to assume yes for safety) and when/if I want to, I can start meds.

Some say it's convenient, others fret the risk of endometrial cancer. *shrug*

I'm gonna die.

... fat and alone.

Dec. 25th, 2003 08:25 pm (UTC)
Re: Nay!
Now that I think about it, I think we've discussed this before. Sitting on the futon in my room in Robby.

You aren't going to die fat and alone. You'll always be surrounded by people who love and worship you. You inspire people on so many levels.

What's the January mean?
Dec. 25th, 2003 08:31 pm (UTC)
It's a chide. January's the top month for suicides, yes?
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