This is making me think about one of the lessons in A Course In Miracles(I'm working through it), I'm never upset for the reason I think. So why am I really upset now? The next lesson is I'm upset because I'm seeing something that isn't there(rough paraphrase). What isn't there? I feel like I'm so torn up because I don't feel like I deserve the money, like I'm somehow taking it from her. Can I make it through the semester if she doesn't pay me? Yes, I can squeeze by. But, without the ability to put some money away, how am I going to move to the great new job I get fresh out of graduate school
In sort of related news, I just found out (in the middle of writing this) that apple is having a two day sale on the iPod that ends in just over 24 hours. 10% off! My graduation gift to myself just got cheaper. So, if you have a quote idea, now is the time to submit it.