I feel so lost. I don't want to finish my Master's; I just don't care anymore. I don't know where I'm going to live in three months, I don't know what I'm going to do for a job.
My gut reaction says to resign my lease. PAUSE. I just called the leasing office; they will let me resign until December. I can start doing the Body Shop consulting thing. Even if it doesn't work out, I know I can pay my rent on my LE check. I'll still be a poor college student, unless I can make this consulting thing work for me. Knowing that I can sign a one semester lease makes me feel more comfortable.
I still have to wonder if I'm clutching again, holding on to my current life situation as a way to avoid having to deal with change. I'm such a freak. Aren't mental health professionals supposed to be above asinine coping strategies learned as toddlers?
Well, Eyeore is off to take a nap. I'm sure I'll feel better afterwards; I don't know what I'll do if I don't.
- Current Mood:
numb
- Current Music:humming Beauty and the Beast OBC - Transformation (from car)
Comments
What is mean't to be, will happen in the time it is suppose too. I am not sure if you believe that, but realize you have tons of talent. Good Things Come to those who wait Stewart!
KEEP THE FAITH!!!
things will look better tomorrow.
How are things in the sunnier parts of the country?
i also feel like i should have my shit together since i'm going into a profession where i'm gonna help others get their shit together. but we just stumble along just like everybody else.
this was kinda depressing but nice to get off my chest. (my chest is big enough as it is...) he he!