February 22nd, 2002

hedwig (by radiocure)

Question for the ages

So what are those metal bracket things they put over champagne corks called. Since I have gone through two bottles tonight( I shared some of it), I am wearing them like glasses!

I'm not nearly drunk enough, yet. I can still type without a problem.
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    Songs for a New World --- Flagmaker, 1776
hedwig (by radiocure)

Truth, Justice, and the Spelling Bee

I can't believe I'm going to tell you this, but if I can't write it in my journal, where can I write it?

I think my being so upset with Michelle Kwan's loss stems from my eighth grade spelling bee.

My father came, one of the very few times he ever came to a school event.

I was nervous. I had always had trouble performing in front of an audience.

First round. The word: searchlight

I spelled it with a C, I was so nervous.

I still feel bad about it. A few years ago, my dad made the mistake of mentioning how embarrassed he felt over it. After I yelled at him for about ten minutes, something I have never done, before or since, I think he understood and empathized with my point of view. I think I would be okay with his confession now, but then I felt it was an attack on me.

I know what it is like to feel the pressure of expectation. I was always classified the smart one of the family. I'm sure my father expected the accolades of the winner's parent. If only the searchlight could have shown me the way, instead of blinding me with my terror.

Michelle, know my love is with you. You are beautiful, you skate superbly, and you have the true soul of an athlete.

I'm going to regret this in the morning, I'm sure. Hopefully, I won't delete it.


P.S. This is, and never will be, the fodder of jokes with me. I still feel bad when I think about it, more than a decade after the incident. My drunk ass is going to bed. I'm done with the maudlin bullshit tonight.

P.P.S. I really am happy for Sarah Hughes, and Irena. I'm even proud of MK, she still is the third best female skater in the world.
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    TV --- Some movie called Get Real with a hot red head
hedwig (by radiocure)


What is it about red-haired men that make me weak in the knees?

I can forgive virtually any other physical flaw, other than BO, for red hair. Weird, huh?

P. S. I wrote a post a little while ago, and it disappeared. Maybe this one will, too . . .
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    Anita Baker --- I've Got Room
hedwig (by radiocure)


I've written two posts in the last hour, using the win client, and they've both disappeared.

I'm not that drunk. I'm sure it's not my fault.

Did you ever see the tv show Eerie, Indiana? Maybe they ended in that place where all the lost stuff went.
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    Anita Baker --- It's been you
hedwig (by radiocure)

As it turns out . . .

It was my fault. My roommates computer clock runs slow, and I update it every so often(have to have accurate times on my journal, after all). When I fixed it, around midnight, I forgot I would have to change the date on the system, too.

So I left all my weird test posts, after I fixed the date on each of them. I'm sure people will find them funny, as my drunk ass is way too cute.
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    Still Anita
hedwig (by radiocure)

Meanwhile, back at the ranch

now I'm very sober

and very very thirsty

Had to work at 11:45 this morning. Turned the alarm off at 1030a, telling myself I would just lay there for a second.

Next thing I know, it's 1126a.

And I was only 4 minutes late. Party on, Wayne.
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