July 17th, 2002

hedwig (by radiocure)

Out, Damn spot Song!

I usually don't mind waking up with a song in my head, but it's Nice is different than good from Into the Woods.

and take extra care with strangers
even flowers have their dangers
and though scary is exciting
nice is different than good

If I had the CD with me, I could listen to it and be done. Instead it's on repeat play in my head.

It's going to be a long day.
  • Current Music
    Humming ITW
hedwig (by radiocure)

An argument for integration. scattered thoughts floating through my head

Just finished dinner at Red Lobster with some friends. Driving back, the warm breeze blowing my hair, listening to Holiday in Spain (courtesy of cynosure), it hit me how happy I am.

I have great friends that I love dearly. Mikey and Karlee are getting ready to leave me, but they'll still be a part of my life. kmaust and I are already making plans for stuff in the fall. I'm surrounded by such love, and I don't often take a moment to let it touch me.

I have a job that is more than just a paycheck. It may not pay much, but I feel like I'm making a difference. I'm going to change the crisis center, or die trying. quelita has moved on, but her spirit remains. Carol mentioned to me today about doing an internship in Foster Care. Perfect. And they fixed the cable today, so I can watch CMT again, who needs anything else?

I feel whole for the first time in a while, my inside matching my outer expression. I'm building a life for myself, not just reacting to outside influence. Am I actually becoming an adult?
  • Current Music
    Wild Irish Rose mister_biv told me the artist, but I forgot