November 27th, 2002

Mental Hospital (reflection)

Thought collision

so on this new day, let's begin from scratch
the pleasure's mine, I give you time
I give you time to screw around
I give you time
I give you time to kiss the ground
I give you time
I give you time to value what you found
But most of all, my friend, I give you time

But what if time isn't really what's needed?

I've been thinking about suicide. How our society views it, how my work looks at it, how much we are all so very afraid of death.

Maybe I'm just jaded, having to deal with suicidal people fairly often, having considered it in the past, but I don't see suicide as the great tragedy that the rest of the world does. Why are we all offended that someone wants to stop living? Why do we all assume that there is something wrong with an individual that no longer wants to live? Come on, this world isn't exactly Utopia. Why shouldn't we respect someone's right to no longer play the game? Let them pack up their toys and go home, to start over again. We respect religious differences (well, some of us do), but we draw the line at letting someone follow through on their beliefs, to seek an afterlife or rebirth.

I can't say anymore that every life is worth living, that life itself is inherently valuable. There comes a point when I look at a life that is always waiting for that brighter tomorrow, hooked on the millenium, and I wish for them peace wherever they can find it.

I think too much (or not enough depending on where you are standing)

what was dark so long, had felt like winter
finally there's sun
and so I sing that I feel so much spring
  • Current Music
    A New Brain OBC---Change(my roomate brought it to me because I really wanted to listen to it)
L5Y Reversed

Ghost Town

Driving around earlier, preparing my car for the 135 mile drive home tomorrow, I went through campus, which was barren. The only thing missing was a tumbleweed rolling through. It's funny that in the summer, the empty feel of Mt P doesn't really bother me, but it always makes me feel lonely during the school year. Even work feels different, hollow somehow. Can't wait to go home in the morning.

Did I mention that in less than two hours, I will have seen 99.42% of Star Trek: Voyager? I think I may have mentioned that once, briefly, a long time ago (smile).

If you observe it, have a great holiday tomorrow!
  • Current Music
    Accuradio---H2S Revival The company way