January 8th, 2006

hedwig (by radiocure)

omt:mile markers

While I was at my father's over Christmas, I started to reflect over the past few years of my life, and made some realizations about some lessons I learned in 2005. Planned on assembling these thoughts into the obligatory end of year post, but for some reason the content kept shifting and would never quite settle into a coherent thought. Instead of writing one comprehensive post, I'm going to try a thread of tagged posts.

I present the first Perception post.

Earlier this week, I had a lady/hag moment, so named for the drawing that Covey uses in the 7 habits that is either a young lady or an older woman depending how you look at it.

I have been BACK in Mount Pleasant for almost twice as long as I was here the first time. Kind of an odd thing to have not noticed before. For some reason, I have always viewed this session of MP occupancy as my "return to mount pleasant" and like a pendulum's second swing, believed it to be bound by unbreakable laws to be less than the first pass. My reflex emotions agree with this thought, but it doesn't hold up to scrutiny. In season one of Mount Pleasant, 48858, Pacey found himself redefining his identity and realizing that he was more than his academic success, met a lot of people that are still dear to him today, and got to be an RA. In the encore season, he comes back to town, continues to refine his career goals by working at a human service agency, decides on a grad school program, and finally gets his bachelor's degree. He also deepens many of the friendships made in season one, even though he grieves for the friends who moved away and started spin-off series starring Jennifer Love Hewitt. He goes on to grad school, continuing to grow and change through the experiences he has there. He is in the right place at the right time and gets a pretty decent (great except for the pay) job in an area where competition is fierce.

Okay, the third-person schtick is getting on my nerves. The point is that this second visit to mount pleasant is chock full of great moments and milestones, and I could benefit from no longer lumping them under the heading of "what I decided to do when I realized I hated my job as an assistant Residence Hall Director". It upsets me to think about how much time I've spent chained to fall, 2001. I'm a very different person than I was then, a better person. It will be interesting to see how I view aspects of the last few years now that I'm giving them the attention and respect they deserve.
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hedwig (by radiocure)

d2d: let me catch you up. It's later that same day.

all the little life details that I didn't want to stick at the end of my last post.

Got my CPAP machine Friday. It wasn't too bad last night; I may be getting used to it. I actually remember dreaming some last night. It can take up to four weeks before you see benefits, so I'm going to stick with it.

Also got some bloodwork done, routine cholesterol and some other stuff to rule out conditions that may be causing the restless leg syndrome. I'm still not sure how much stock I put into the restless leg thing, but according to the report, I'm waking up 15 times an hour due to it. At least that's better than the 42 or 47 times an hour I'm waking up due to the apnea.

I will make the sandman my bitch.

Just got a bunch of new clients at work, which should be nice, once I survive all the initial paperwork.