I feel empty, and somehow still. But, underneath, there is tension, like if I dare pick at it, the see into the center of it, it will be unleashed, and will never be contained again.
If I dare scream, I won't be able to stop.
I want to record this. After awhile, I will start to analyze, and rationalize, and will make sense of this. And in doing so, I will discover nothing but will convince myself that I have.
I watch the actors in the movie, and like Laura Linney said in an interview, I do see myself in so many characters. This doesn't make me feel better. To feel this lost is so close to despair that I don't want to stay here any longer.
I'm calling the SARK inspiration line to shake this feeling. I can't deal with it now.