Dr. Hapgood, your cruise director (hapgood) wrote,
Dr. Hapgood, your cruise director
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An argument for integration. scattered thoughts floating through my head

Just finished dinner at Red Lobster with some friends. Driving back, the warm breeze blowing my hair, listening to Holiday in Spain (courtesy of cynosure), it hit me how happy I am.

I have great friends that I love dearly. Mikey and Karlee are getting ready to leave me, but they'll still be a part of my life. kmaust and I are already making plans for stuff in the fall. I'm surrounded by such love, and I don't often take a moment to let it touch me.

I have a job that is more than just a paycheck. It may not pay much, but I feel like I'm making a difference. I'm going to change the crisis center, or die trying. quelita has moved on, but her spirit remains. Carol mentioned to me today about doing an internship in Foster Care. Perfect. And they fixed the cable today, so I can watch CMT again, who needs anything else?

I feel whole for the first time in a while, my inside matching my outer expression. I'm building a life for myself, not just reacting to outside influence. Am I actually becoming an adult?
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